Sunday, April 12, 2009

Scary: Sunday Scribblings

It's been at the forefront of my mind all week. Not that it's ever that far back in my mind. Since the day we brought home the first one more than a dozen years ago, the fear has been there. Frankly, it was there even before he joined the family. It appeared unbidden right about the time I discovered I was pregnant.

Undoubtedly, there are horrific events which make the world collectively gasp. A half-dozen roll off my tongue immediately. But in a think-globally-act-locally sense, it is the tiny, personal tragedies which scare me the most. To awaken each day to the realization that my child is gone frightens me beyond belief. Beyond description.

Sunday Scribblings asks what scares us most. The death of my child chills me more than anything else I can imagine.

14 comments:

anthonynorth said...

As a father I know that fear.

D... said...

So very much.

Tara R. said...

It is also my worst fear.

keiths ramblings said...

Eloquently put.

quin browne said...

the moment we realise we are with child, that fear is top of the list.

josie2shoes said...

For myself too, and lots of other folks I know, the fear of losing someone we love is definitely the greatest fear of all. For me, the only peace of mind comes in believing that after this life I will be once again back in the spirit realm with all the people I have loved in my lifetime!

Jeni said...

As difficult as it is to lose a parent, sibling, close relative or friend, I can even begin to imagine the pain that would ensue to lose one's child. I've seen the faces of family members as well as friends and neighbors who lost a child and words to describe just the look of pain and grief on their faces speacks legions. I saw my aunt -a strong woman, also walked with her head held high -lose her husband of over 50 years and she stood tall, erect but 10 months later when her oldest son died suddenly of an aneurism, you could see her shoulders visibly slumping.

Tumblewords: said...

So true! That's my biggest fear, too! But I've added grandchildren to that list and... Scary, indeed!

Jennifer Hicks said...

can't even contemplate that...i felt the chill...

Caloden said...

Yes, more than anything. I think that is what prompts the family bed philosophy in our house. I am just so afraid they will stop breathing in the night. Yes, I said that out loud...

Tricia said...

Me too, absolutely grips my heart.

Kelly O said...

Yes, totally. To be a parent is to be constantly afraid, I think. Our lives could be completely shattered. It's so awful, and I find myself crying for those moms multiple times a day.

Jay said...

The fear lessens when they become adults, but it never totally goes away. We just worry and fret in different ways.

CrAzY Working Mom said...

in a perfect world, the parent would never out live a child. *sigh*

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